hooray for merry-go-rounds

I come home to silence

I turn on the light

I sit on my bedroom floor

I look around at the mess

I get up and clean

I rearrange and straighten

fix the broken atmosphere

I try to fix the computer

I get bored of trying to fix something

I have no knowledge of

I put on some Belle and Sebastian

I sit down at my desk

Nag Champa and dim light

I reflect a little on the year

It's clear I haven't grown

She gave me anxiety at nine

I still have dreams of being eaten alive

so much time has passed

And I'm still afraid of being eaten alive

Is desire dying...

I see rivers and cycles

its the end of it all

I know its coming

if only that were true

no rhyme no reason...

I pretend I know you all

I pretend you know me too

At least I convince myself that you don't

At least I convince myself

theres a bottom, theres an end

For a moment it all makes sense when

I can follow rhythm and its all dancing

In water and all your laughs and gestures

And for a moment theres a dream

And for a moment its like stars

And all their traveling

And the moon reflecting light off the sun

And I see Narcissus and Sysiphus and Prometheus

And I laugh

And for a moment theres a dream of tidal waves

And its all dancing like water running rhythms

And all your laughs and gestures

And theres a bottom, an end