doubts

I am beginning to have doubts that I wont be able to go to school next semester. I have so many little things to get done this week in order to get beack in, and i have no doubt I can get them done, but i stil have this insecure feeling it wont work out for some reason or another. Its probably silly and all will be well. I'm really uncertain about everything and frustrated that I don't feel like I have time to spend with my uncertainty. No time to roll it around in my head, to thoroughly feel it out and just sit with it.
I am also excited about everything though. Excited to almost be done with my job, excited to leave everything up to whatever, the universe or something like that.
I need to work on getting published in anything, something, so I can Poetry In the Schools and get paid to lead small poetry workshops with this cool woman Ameara. That makes me nervous and stressed just thinking about it. Unfortunately zines don't count. Does anyone have any ideas?
I have been running into a lot of old friends lately. When I was stuck in traffic in S.F. on my way to Libertatia I looked to my left and there was my old friend Diamond Dave stuck in traffic beside me. I didn't even know he lived in san Fran until I ran into him randomly a week before that in Chico. Little weird things like that have been hapenning often. Its making life a little more interesting.
Today a friend I ran into that I haven't seen in two years asked me if I was happy, I hate that question. I think its completely irrelevant if youa re happy or not happy. Its more irrelevant to ask "so how is your personal development coming along?" Or " has life been satisfying you lately?" soemthing like that, but people never ask 'corny' questions like that. Whatever.
I leave you with a quote:

"To think deeply in our culture is to grow
angry and to anger others; and if you cannot
tolerate this anger, you are wasting the time
you spend thinking deeply. One of the rewards
of deep thought is the hot glow of anger at discovering
a wrong, but if anger is taboo, thought will starve to death."

Jules Henry