8/05/2005

love? Pt. 2

I hope that the first post did not make it sounds like I didn't value love, or anything like that. I actually place love in very high regard but it is rare that I see someone who is able to love without expectations of what the relationship is suppossed to be. The latter is difficult and maybe the point of love is to not to work towards the absence of expectations but toward a better understanding of those we love and the environments in which they live and this may inevitable lead to having less expectations of what the relationship or the person is 'suppossed' to be.
As for G-d, G-d is love. 'It' is both the human concept of love, love itself, and our ability to feel it, or to know it, and our ability to analyze it.
This exploration of love comes obviously from the fact that, like all most others, I have lost many people to death, drugs, the splitting of paths causing us to move in different circles with different lessons. Though 'losing' people is not as painful as I was when I was a child there is still this great lack of understanding for the ultimate role that love plays in our personal/spiritual development. I want to understand what the root of it is, where it comes from, how it helps me, or works against me when I think that I am feeling love but really some level of infatuation. This is a life long pursuit and one that I feel nourishes me every day ( another amazing thing to add to the list).
And maybe what the world does need more of is love, but not love in the 'hippie' sense of the word. The idea I have in mind is that when we decide to revolutionize ourselves by constantly learning, remaining true to our values, and living our convictions, we are acting out of love. Maybe not a love that is felt but the devotion to do so, the commitment to do so, the fact that we may influence another by our example, is perhaps a form of love, and the world could probably use a little more of personalized, or internalized r/evolution.
I have many more questions to pose on this subject, but on another day.

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