I want everything the rain the sun mountains and flatland solitude and a social life I want to write but be too busy living to write i want companionship and a solitary life i want dreamless nights and i want dreams that speak to me i want everyone i love who has died back but i want them to be at peace i want to work and i want to do nothing i want to hold you all the time and not be touched i want rivers and oceans and lakes and i want the concrete i want to be exceptional at something but i also don't want to care if im 'mediocre' i want all the love in the world but i also don't care if i ever have any (most of the time) i want to travel and i want stability i want struggle and growth and i want security normalcy peace and calm i want to be homeless but i want a room of my own.
blah blah blah, i could keep going.
hmmm all this must be because im a gemini right?whatever.
restlessness has taken over... but maybe i should relish in it maybe it'll actually help me write something.
why hasn't anyone submitted anything to my zine damnit?
1 comment:
You always have such proactive suggestions. the 'needs' list i posted was only a momentary spew of anxiety, discontent, and restlesness not really anything that I need or should dwell on for more time than it took me to write it. Though I do think of these things often they often fine sitting in the background of my thoughts, and thats where I like to keep all my wants and needs. I have no desire to spend any time with them when an opportunity for making them happen is not presenting itself...
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