uh....(continued)

So i made my last post because I wasn't feeling up to par. I was feeling like my performance at work was not what it could be, or usually is, and overall I was a little down in the dumps.
and i agree with you Rev, if I am going to be swallowed by anything I hope its either a big fuckin beautiful wave or the void.
not even twenty minutes after i made that post I went to talk to one of my administrators and started talking about my experiences here and how I am leaving and what I will be doing when I am not in this position anymore. She said that there wasn't anything concrete in the works but there had been talk of puting together some workshops on various things next year and I guess my name came up about possibly running workshops. She didn't say what they were about but given what she and I talk about most of the time and what I have shown the most gusto toward is anything that has to do with politics, feminist theory, and self help. so i'm hoping they will hagve something to do with the latter. I was immediately felt uplifted and that maybe I had been judging myself too harshly.
i love my job...90% of the time.
thats all thats new for now/.
peace